I want to write this feeling down. Record it so that I can remember it. It needs to be cherished.
I am lying in bed listening to a investigative murder podcast.
Rose is cuddled up in my arms. She reaches out, one paw usually touching me.
The light is on outside the door and I can hear Tevita sitting at the desk, tapping away, working late.
My house is full because my sister and her kids are staying over.
I feel safe and relaxed. Good feelings washing over me as I zone in and out.
Soon I will fall asleep. Surrounded by family in the big busy house I always dreamed of. Protected, loved and happy.
It’s a good night. It’s almost a shame to fall asleep. I am lucky and I’m well enough to know it.